I’ve seen a different place that has changed my perspective on life and now I want to live a little differently than I have. I brought joy to young kids this past week but I also had to say one of the hardest goodbyes of my life. It was one of the hardest things I have ever experienced. Letting go of them hurt my heart.

God knew I was going to fall apart one of these times and it happened. I was broken most of our day on  Monday, which was our first day working at the orphanage. I felt anxious for what the week was going to hold. I wanted to open my heart to what Jamaica had to offer me and for ways the God was going to speak to me.

Still, coming home I have no idea what God was trying to say to me other than showing my my gentle heart. His love for me fulfills my life.

How has this experienced changed me? Well…

1.) God has showed me that it is okay to be emotional over the unknown

2.) God showed me how other people live and how grateful I am for my current life

3.) God changed my perspective on the lives that orphans live

4.) God lead me to a little boy named Dontai whom I will love until I see him in Heaven. I pray so hard over him, that God may send my love to him even though I am in Boiling Springs.